28 5 / 2012
THIS WEEK?
What is this???!!! I just realized that PROM IS THIS FRIDAY O.O
Omg..It’s May 29 tomorrow…
Where did May go???!!! Oh dear……………………………………………..
Everything’s moving too fast ..T.T
24 5 / 2012
Self Defeat.
Why do we have self defeat? It’s not beneficial to our life. Shouldn’t evolution leave us with traits that will benefit our survival?
If we were to tell ourselves that we can’t do something. Then…we most likely won’t do anything o.o.
So why does self defeat exist?!
Is it a trait derived from being humble? Are we humble so we can fit in and socialize with each other? Make ourselves more “appealing”?
Self defeat makes us look weak. So…are we trying to look weak so other’s can protect us?
I personally don’t really think that self defeat should exist…
I mean, over-confidence and being cocky aren’t great traits either. But I don’t think there should be a reason for self defeat to exist.
I do alot of self defeating. And honestly….I need support from others to do what I really need to do. I know that I need more confidence in myself. But why am I so self defeating? Even when my friends and family tries to cheer me on?
Why do I keep doubting everything they say; doubting that whatever comes out of their mouth isn’t really what they think in their heart.
Maybe…the things they say aren’t what they think in their heart. But, wouldn’t trying your best and showing them your best make them think otherwise?
I’m not quite sure where I’m trying to get at. But here’s a pretty cool video for those who are down or need some self confidence at the moment:
11 5 / 2012
Conan Update! (5.11)
WE ARE SO BEHIND!!!
And it’s my fault ><. I skipped like a whole week due to testing and other stress factors.
So today, we’re suppose to be on episode 33 but we’re only on the 25th. Well we watched the first movie on Shinichi’s birthday!
here’s the next episode:
http://www.animecrazy.net/detective-conan-episode-25/
03 5 / 2012
Annoyed about the topic: Prom
I just lost my date for prom to a guy. My friend (a girl) asked me to be her “date” for prom earlier this year (not school year) and I agreed. We were going to make our corsages, match each other, and just be each other’s “date”. But then today, a guy classmate asked her; with her locker decorated and flowers. She said, “Ok.”
I didn’t care that the guy asked her to prom, and she has all the right to decide who she goes to prom with (I even told her yesterday that even though we promised to go to prom together, I don’t want this promise to tie her down and if she wanted to go with someone else, that’s ok with me). But well, of course, I’m still disappointed. Honestly, I thought she wouldn’t agree. Since I thought the two of them weren’t even that familiar with each other. But apparently, they had lunch together one year before so I guess they “know” each other. Another is that, after some thinking and putting myself in the guy’s shoes, he was pretty nervous and still put in some effort to ask her. I guess it’s ok to agree with the invitation.
Bottom line though: I hope she will have a good time at prom and will be ok being his “date”.
In my opinion, one thing I don’t quite like about the “prom date” arrangement is that, if you have a date, you are tied down to spend the whole night with your date. Or…well, that’s the silent rule right (or manner….?)? If I went to prom with someone I wasn’t REALLY interested in or very friendly with, I don’t think I could survive a whole night with ONLY them. I think going with friends is like…the best. But…it’s not that great when your friend circle is getting smaller because they are taken by their dates.
So…
1) I don’t mind going with a date, as long as I’m interested in them or I’m super friendly with them (super friendly would be nice)
2) I would love to go to prom with a group of friend. Prom would just become like..the best hang out place for the last time with some of my closest friends.
AP testing starts next week. So I don’t want to think about anything but studying right now and my creative writing project @@. After AP testing, it’s going to be like…the best senior year days. Let’s work hard and get over my last year of APs!
24 4 / 2012
24 4 / 2012
Me and my friend hahah.
(Source: asexyvirgin, via girlsbydaylight)
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